Sunday, July 18, 2010

The Blur

For any fans of Smallville, I'm not talking about Clark Kent here. I'm talking about the blur that becomes your life when you have a newborn. Time seems to become a big blog that has very little meaning and sleep is an ever elusive luxury. Yes, those first few newborn weeks are a blur. I'm in the fog right now.

When I had my first baby, I thought I had it so hard sitting around the house all day with a newborn baby constantly feeding and changing diapers. Of course, I couldn't have realized how easy things really were being able to sleep whenever the baby slept and pretty much letting time melt away into nothing. It was okay to get caught up in the blur because there was nothing to mark time other than the comings and goings of my husband.

But once you have other children who still wake up at the same early time every morning, you have to sort of pretend that you're alert enough to keep going. They still have their "I need a drink" and "I'm hungry" and "Mommy, she won't share with me". I'm not really complaining (ok, maybe a teensy bit), I'm just saying...that's the reality. Several people have asked me how I'm managing with 4 children 5 years and under. The truth is that the quantity of children isn't the problem. It's the lack of sleep and being in a blur while the rest of the family continues to live on their normal schedule.

One thing I am grateful for, which I didn't think I would be, is that Forest is still only 16 months old. It means that he still stays in his crib and sometimes takes 2 naps a day. And if a miracle happens and he is napping while Kiira is asleep....happy day! I lay down on the couch and try to get that elusive luxurious five minutes of sleep until someone else needs a drink, or food, or to tattle on a sibling. :-)

Oh, and Kiira is becoming cuter every day! I promise to post more pics soon.


Family of Three said...

I love reading your posts! I am a single mom to one (who I adopted). I remember those blur days... I don't know what your experience has been but I am so happy right now as my daughter (now 5 months) has been sleeping 10- 12 hours at night) Love it! I have been praying for you since I started reading your blog and through the journey of adopting Kiira.... I found it interesting that you too are from up state NY... I grew up in Sackets harbor near Watertown! Enjoy your family and God bless.

jennie w. said...

Been there. feel your pain (or should I say I feel your sleepiness.)

Here's someting funny, though. When I have a couple of kids missing I'm like, "hey, let's go to the store! There are only four kids today!" Only four. Ha.

Tammy said...

Oh do I remember those days! Enjoy every sleepless moment. You will blink your eyes and they'll be in High School!

I swear to you it was only yesterday he was watching Blue's Clues and I was trying to catch a few minutes of sleep on the couch while the baby was napping...and suddenly he is going to High School.

I'm not exactly sure where the time has gone!

Can't wait see more pictures -

L. said...

What a cute (and TRUE!)blog! I tearfully promised my husband during pregnancy number 4 that I would give up any expense in life if he would let me hire a night nurse for the first 2 months. That blur really is a killer!!!!!!

Unfortunately pregnancy #4 miscarried, as did numbers 5,6,7, and 8. After that I never had to worry about that problem again.

Yes, she IS getting cuter!

Jennie's reply really made me laugh!